This week, I am responsible for writing and giving a speech.
Although I have given countless lectures and a few papers at conferences, I am terrified of giving speeches. They make me nervous, uneasy and downright scared.
I'm the maid of honor in a wedding.
These speeches are strange. I'm sending someone off into a life that I know nothing about or I'm supposed to eulogize the person who is getting married.
I don't necessarily want to do either of those things.
I don't think that I want the speech to be a traditional one. I don't want to reflect on the friendship that I've had with this person and make it a "remember when we were 15 and talked about the men we were going to marry?"
Because we never talked about that.
I just want to wish her well.
I also don't want reflect on how much has changed (particularly in the last year ) in the seventeen and half years that we have known one another.
I just want to write a good speech, the one that is expected and the one that will do.
And now I need some comfort. I have this and one other big thing going on, and I just want some comfort. (I know. I'm being such a girl.)