In the past, I have eschewed making New Year's resolutions just as Jenni has done. Too often I promise myself the impossible, or at least highly impobable: I will do a triathlon, I will learn how to speak Mandarin and Farsi, I will build a dining room table with the help of my father.
I think that there is something to the start of a new decade that is provoking this need in me to make some declaration about what I will or won't do.
I do not lament the passing of the last couple of years, nor will I miss them.
But I will say that I've grown up quite a bit. And of course, I have some more growing up to do. Thank goodness.
This year, I choose to make a couple of resolutions, and I will share a few of them on this space. I can't promise that I will be successful, but I will certainly try my damnedest to enact some of these resolutions:
1. I will try to learn to let go of that which I can't change. So often, I find myself wanting things in a certain way (don't we all), and not being able to stop wanting them even when it's not possible anymore. I've got to remember that mutability is the stuff of life. And you can't always get what you want.
2. I have been called "giving to a fault." The only way I can interpret that is that I have this habit of pushing to make sure that I keep certain friendships and relationships going to the detriment of others, and perhaps even to the detriment of myself. If things are meant to work out, they will, and if they don't, I'm not going to push to make sure that they do. And I will learn to not take things so personally. Even if they are personal.
3. I am going to see more of the world. Or at least travel more.
4. I am going to figure out what I want to do with my life. Or at least try to figure it out.
5. I am going to write a book length project. Probably a novel. I have an idea. It may or may not work, but I am going to give it a shot. Perhaps I'll get to meet Cormac McCarthy yet.
Perhaps these resolutions will fail, but I think that they are a far sight better than swearing that I will be the fittest person in DC, become a CIA agent or host my own cooking show.